After week 3

The first part of the week went pretty good.

The last part... not so good.

The weekend was so, so.

I didn't exercise much and I really think this is what got me into trouble. I ran into a couple of days with UNBELIEVABLE cravings just to stuff my face with everything in site. Not a good feeling. Of course, the more you give into the feeling, the worse the cravings get. Nice like that, eh?

I've read all the books that talk about the blood sugar levels and how the spikes and valleys cause you to crave food more, even though you just ate... blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

The fact is it comes down to self discipline and whether or not you have it. I don't yet. I'm working on it. It sounds like it should be easy. Of course if it was, they probably wouldn't call it discipline.

This week when I get the cravings I'm going to:
#1 -> Pray for strength
#2 -> Exercise

Weigh in for the week. Down one pound (not too bad considering).
237 lbs. 67 lbs to go.

After week 1

Well, this is the first weigh in here of trying to lose weight. I have to say "trying" is a pretty loose term. I had one day where I ate 7 twinkies. I polished off close to two dozen oranges for the week. It wasn't real good.

Then yesterday we had an extra kid for the day, so after church we went to the park and played some flag football. It was a great time! We came home and played some Mario Cart and then I kicked back and watched the kids play for a while.

Then I tried to get up.

Evidently while I was resting some invisible elves came and beat my right foot with a pick axe, or at least that's what it felt like. Just killing me! Every step.

I have bad feet anyway, well, at least I've had bad feet since I've been fat. I have issues with my plantar fascia and also tendonitis in my Achilles tendons... that's right, both of them. Nice, eh?

I'm taking it as motivation, my body's way of saying, "do you really think you were MEANT to be this fat?!" I mean, really, I should be able to play football with my boys without hobbling around like some decrepit old man!

Looking at the various charts and things I should probably be in the 160-180 range. So I'll shoot for 170.

So... after my weigh in this morning... 242.5 lbs I only have 72.5 lbs to go.

Ouch! No, not the weight, just my foot again. I just keep thinking... MOTIVATION!

Like I said

Someone brought oranges in to work. I thought, well, that's a healthy snack, even though I shouldn't be snacking. Six oranges, some popcorn, a package of Gem donuts, a strawberry milk, two chocolate chip cookies and a handful of shredded cheddar cheese later (why am I fat?)

Then dinner.

This is why I have to cut out the snacks.

No bueno.

Enough Politics... it's time for something even less encouraging

I have to lose weight.

No, I mean really.

It's sadly pathetic when you go to get out of bed and it feels like someone has been beating the bottoms of your feet with a hammer all night ( I did ask Brandi about this and she confirmed that she is not the culprit). Then while you are hobbling across the floor you realize your knee is hurting as well... no NOT the one with the torn ACL, but the OTHER one... you know... your GOOD one! Nice. This is ridiculous. I'm only 31, right?

I've read all the books. I've zoned, South Beached, Ab-ed, YOUed, Slimmed Slowed and even BREATHED my way thin... or not.

I'm trying to think back to when I was a kid and had a metabolism. What did I do back then? How did I eat? Naturally the fact that I was still growing (not out but UP) helped a bit, but that couldn't be everything.

The nice thing is that I have learned a lot about myself.
- I've learned that I'm not good at the "snack all day" plan, because once I start eating... well, let's just say I injest any food in sight.
- I find some personal satisfaction in actually getting hungry. I think there is something to be said for that.
- I'm NOT good at planning my meals for the day. Sure a sandwhich and a V8 sounds fine the night before, but the pulled pork sandwhich (Tennessee style OF COURSE) sounds so much better when it's lunch time and I just need to leave work.
- I struggle with "moderation" but I'm pretty good at cutting stuff out entirely (no candy, no ice cream in 2008!)

So...where does that leave me.

I think the best thing for me is three square meals a day. No snacking. Not too restrictive at the meals, but no seconds. Get a good portion and enjoy! Try and be healthy about the selections, or... at least not too unreasonable.

Hmmm... I wonder how that will be.

As a sword in the back... I'll weigh in every Monday morning and report it here. Not saying anyone will actually see it, but I'll at least feel like I had to admit it to somebody (or at least to the computer :)

So... all time worst weight was 1/1/07 = 251 lbs.

This morning was 245 lbs. Ouch. That hurt.

This is what I've been waiting to hear!!!

While I wouldn't necessarily say that it's healthy for me to be 50 pounds (or more) over weight. According to some new research by the CDC it's actually a little healthier to be a little overweight. SWEET!!

Personally I just think it's because fat people are just a little bit happier. :)

Weight

Ug. No bueno. I recently lost thirty pounds, which was a good start toward the 70 that I needed to lose. Well, when I got on the scale this morning I was back UP 13 pounds, which means I have 53 pounds to lose. No bueno. I would really LOVE to be under 200 by Christmas. This would put me 50 pounds down for the year. That would be a good goal.

Yesterday I did REALLY bad. Lunch was a pulled pork sandwhich (Tennessee style), with a 32 ounch Sobe citrus energy drink, a big bag of Fiery Habenero Doritos and (can you see it coming) a medium blizzard. Ouch. Nothing like a 4 digit lunch to kill your weight loss.

I'm back on track today though. I did good for breakfast and I have a slimfast shake in the fridge for lunch.

Must lose weight...